Silent Freak-Out

I always try and stay calm but there are some days when the background noise in my brain is just beyond the powers of my masking. It has been a long time since I developed a very “DO” attitude. You know, just not think about – DO it. There are days like today though, on which I sit down and feel like plucking my hair out in pure insanity because the volume of the things that need me is beyond comprehension. Every day I wonder if maybe, if I start doing homework the day it is assigned, I’ll probably do better in a class, or maybe if I leave my wallet at home everyday, I’ll begin to realize the importance of “saving”. Then I wonder when my bills are due. Why, I don’t want a delinquent account. Delinquent accounts are no good, they hurt your credit. Can’t hurt your credit, need to keep applying for loans the next two semesters. No loans means no fee payments, leads to no education, no end to the battle I picked. Maybe I should pay my bills in class, but what about lecture. I can’t take my ears off lecture. Yeah but what about the official stuff at the University Office, resolving my exam time conflicts – I need to take those letters to my instructors. But when? I get out at 5:30 pm – offices are closed. Well, let’s miss class, Can’t miss class. Chris Fugger keeps giving homework from class notes. Why does he do that, I don’t know – he just does. What about recitation quizzes. Can’t miss out on those. Tuesday Thursday are booked. Counselors are only free on Monday Wednesday and Friday. I called. I checked. What about Friday. You have an hour free from 2:30-3:30. No I gotta print my homework plots in that hour. My friends need me. Ditch the friends. Can’t do that. Won’t ditch my friends. They always have my back, can’t abandon them. What about your health. What’re you gonna eat tonight. Don’t know. I want to cook something. You have no time. Gonna take a nap after class today. Can’t, have online homework due at 10pm. Why don’t you finish homework early. Great, I’ll do that. But what about my meeting. They’re waiting. Should I ditch them? What about the Arabic vocabulary. I never memorize it. Then I emerge strong after exams. It seems like I don’t give a shit about that class. Need to stop stacking 80% in the quizzes. Gota do better Reema, Andrew has a 100 on all of his. He’s taking the A, don’t let the A go away. You need the A, you need all the A’s. You gotta have something to show. Those A’s look good. But where are those A’s. They’re disappearing. Why. Because you sleep those four hours in the day. You take a day off every two weeks – you went out with your friend(s). Stop doing it? No I can’t. I’m human. I can’t stop sleeping, eating, relaxing. What am I gonna do. I have 19 credits. I have five aero courses. I have a language class getting harder by the day. Is there anything else I can do. I don’t know. I’m trying to survive. I wanna do well. What does it mean to do well. Maybe you should stop being so fucking calm. Maybe you should freak the fuck out every instant you can. There, is that helping? IS THAT HELPING? freak out!!! No it’s not helping. I think I’m doing the best I can.

Yeah.

I am. 

A Very Windy Chicago Weekend

What can I say, going to Chicago is almost like a natural instinct now. My dear friend Munirah and I ventured out to the windy city for a vacation. Instead we were greeted by mounds of snow in a silent, white city. Nevertheless, we trolled bravely through the bad weather and managed a few photographs. More on their way!

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Winter So Far

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Experimenting with my Minolta lens.

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At an Italian restaurant in Detroit. I don’t like red wine, a couple of men at the bar kept buying my friend and I glasses of random alcohol.

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Christmas Cooking – No bake cheesecake (my own personal recipe)

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Christmas dinner hosted by my dear friend Mercy and I…

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People say my cheesecake is “to die for” ;)!

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Holiday lights outside a restaurant in Detroit. I visited the city a few weeks ago.

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Rosary on my friend’s car. Literally “Jesus take the wheel!” :)

 

 

A Wrap Up On Fall

The colors have vanished from the trees and it’s Thanksgiving break! My chicken’s brining in the fridge, the buttermilk is ready to do it’s job and the cheddar is all grated for the biscuits. I suppose it’s a good time to wrap up on some amazing colors of the season I so deeply adore.

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Midwest Cruising – The Buckeye State

A friend of mine recently moved to Ohio, and I packed my bags and paid a visit to what I would say is a prettier version of Indiana!

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Average coffee, but very hip setting. The sitting area blew my mind.

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Possibly the best burger I have had in some time now. Juicy, flavorful, well-cooked, balanced. What more could you ask for?!

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It’s always sunny in Ohio. Well, maybe not, but the weather felt much clearer.

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I have a certain love for relics, and this lamp qualifies. HAHA.

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From the “deck” of the coffee shop. Wooden floors, my favorite season, and a quiet evening. Nirvana.

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I just had to.

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TADA! The seating area is a wooden deck overlooking a creek. So beautiful, and unlike our local Wabash river in Indiana, the water does not smell, although it is murky.

Midwest Cruising – Chicago and The Windmills

This past weekend, I was blessed with a long weekend aka Fall break. While I did cram in to my books for the first good half of it, I decided to venture out and about on Monday and Tuesday. First stop? Chicago, of course. I grabbed a dear friend of mine, told her to charge her camera and flock away with me. We rolled in some bushes and eventually tumbled in to the windy city. Made it back alive. I’m not an experienced driver, so yes city traffic pushes me to the edge, and it is always an accomplishment to come back in one piece (with no vehicle damage either) HAHA!

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The windmills are a short drive from Purdue on the way to Chicago and are nestled amongst endless fields of soy beans.

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We made it to the city just on time for some vibrant sunset colors on the sky. Fortunately for us the weather was quite clear. Photo taken at ISO 200, f/4.5

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Chicago’s skyline is best seen from Adler Planitarium, especially at night. We fiddled around with our cameras for a while around here. Photo taken at ISO 200, f/25 and 30 sec exposure time.

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The Wrigley building is really beautiful at night. f/22 , ISO 200 , exposure time 30 sec

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Ihad developed quite an aversion to pretzel buns after eating at Kuma’s. However, Lockdown Bar and Grill was quite a treat. The burger was well-cooked, well-seasoned… and the cheese! UMMM! I think gorgonzola is my new favorite cheese. It goes so well on burgers!

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It felt great to finally be able to photograph the windmills!

Chicago – A mid August weekend

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The Navy pier at Chicago has a $6 ferris wheel ride which gives breath taking views of the city…

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Tickets for the ferris wheel. Everybody get their windy city on!

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the view of the city from the ferris wheel. I feel I take more photos of the windy city than I do of my home town haha!

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Beautiful purple blooms and the John Hancock tower standing proud in the background!

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You have GOT to try Chicago’s deep dish style pizza while you’re visiting. Pizzeria Uno makes it the best. My favorite one is Four cheese and Pesto!

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Drinks run pretty expensive in the windy city. It’s a good idea to drink at home before hitting the bars.

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The view from my friend’s apartment was SICK. That’s Willis tower in the background!

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Night-time view from the bedroom. Absolutely stunning!